Cannonball

I had a weird weekend, I was very VERY quiet, not my usual loud mouth self and it caused a lot of self reflection about my life, about the challenge, about what I want to do and what I feel like I should do. Through it all I found my shuffle kept coming back to this one song on my phone : Cannonball by Lea Michele. The song talks about moving forward and starting fresh with a new beginning and as I found myself singing the lyrics over and over again it didn’t really sink in that these lyrics “I start my new beginning tonight” and I suddenly throughout hang on this challenge is called “Your New Beginning” Wow, mind blown! I know!

So anyway it has been a good weekend, one in which I stayed mostly silent and did a lot of reflecting and found some much needed clarity about a lot of situations and things in my life (at this stage I don’t feel comfortable enough to list them all here!) Suffice so say I am making a lot of changes, a lot of positive things and hard decisions I have left to linger will now be decided upon and all I can say is not everyone is going to be happy. But that’s the point isn’t it, this is about me, not about anyone else and that’s what I have finally learnt.

“Cannonball”

Break down
Break down

Break down
I was scared to death I was losing my mind
Break down
I couldn’t close my eyes I was pacing all night, oh, no,
I think I found the light at the end of the tunnel (and my doubts)
I couldn’t find the truth I was going under

But I won’t hide inside
I gotta get out, gotta get out, gotta get out, gotta get out
Lonely inside and light the fuse
Light it now, light it now, light it now

And now I will start living today, today, today
I close the door
I got this new beginning and I will fly
I’ll fly like a cannonball, like a cannonball, like a cannonball
I’ll fly, I’ll fly, I’ll fly like a cannonball

Freedom
I let go of fear and the peace came quickly
Freedom
I was in the dark and then it hit me
I chose suffering and pain in the falling rain
I know, I gotta get out into the world again

But I won’t hide inside
I gotta get out, gotta get out, gotta get out, gotta get out
Lonely inside and light the fuse
Light it now, light it now, light it now

And now I will start living today, today, today
I close the door
I got this new beginning and I will fly
I’ll fly like a cannonball, like a cannonball, like a cannonball
I’ll fly, I’ll fly, I’ll fly like a cannonball

Break down
I was scared to death I was losing my mind
Break down
I gotta get out into the world again

And now I will start living today, today, today
I close the door
I got this new beginning and I will fly
I’ll fly like a cannonball, like a cannonball, like a cannonball
I’ll fly, I’ll fly, I’ll fly like a cannonball, like a cannonball, like a cannonball
I’ll fly, I’ll fly, I’ll fly like a cannonball

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